My Own Worst Critic

first_imgWhen you spend a lot of time by yourself, there comes a point when you simply get fed up with you.It’s the worst too, because you can’t blame anyone but you. There’s no scapegoat, no assistant that forgot to charge your battery or clear your memory card. There’s only you.If you’re like me, the times I really get on my nerves are when the stupidest, most preventable things happen.Like when I misplaced my key for the gajillionth time, only to realize that it slipped out of my pocket in an overgrown field in the dead of night under a new moon (side note, 45 minutes and a lot of cursing later, I found it).Or that time I lost my headlamp the first day I moved from my apartment into the Jeep (still haven’t found that sucker).Or how about just last week when I woke up early (I’m talking 4:45am) to see the lunar eclipse and sunrise, only to drive 45 minutes outside of town and realize that a) I’d forgotten my camera and b) I only had my Eddie Bauer RipPac rain jacket to keep me warm in the gusting mountaintop winds.Whhhyyyy I remember whining to myself. Why can’t this be easy?Immediately I gave myself a mental bitch-slap-across-the-face, chastising myself for such a foolish thought. That’s what I was asking myself? Why can’t this be easy? Really?Who told you this was going to be easy? Living on the road was your idea. You don’t even like when things are easy, I reminded myself.For the most part, that statement is pretty true. Especially when I was in school, I would get bored, apathetic even, when classes didn’t challenge me. I’d do the bare minimum to skate by, always managing to pump out an A (except ceramics, that blasted class). I thrive in the face of challenge (except in ceramics). Sometimes I flop and flail and fail, but it’s that working hard, that struggle, that motivates me.But living on the road is inherently hard, especially when you have this laundry list of traits that aren’t very conducive to a happy-go-lucky life-on-the-road. Disorganized, distracted. Not exactly what you’d want out of someone whose life fits into a Jeep Cherokee and a few Deuter packs.That being said, I’ve made leaps and bounds since I ditched my apartment at the end of April. I have a system of organized chaos down, I know (mostly) where everything is, and I’ve since adopted my friend’s double-triple-check technique before peeling out of a parking lot (that one came about after I drove down the main drag in West Asheville to a number of cars honking and lights flashing…apparently my CamelBak water bottle was riding high and dry between the crossbars…).Despite the progress, I’m no road warrior savant, as my less-than-ideal sunrise excursion last week proved.Thankfully, my space-cadet-self had left a charged GoPro in the passenger seat the night before the lunar eclipse. So with nothing more than that, my iPhone, and a perfectly functional (albeit slightly sluggish) memory, I followed my friends through the dark to the overlook just a 1/2 mile up the mountain to watch the sunrise.With every step I took up the muddy trail, I actually started to feel better about having forgotten my camera. It was kinda cloudy, kinda rainy.Maybe the sunrise won’t be that great, I convinced myself. We obviously weren’t going to see the lunar eclipse with the cloud coverage, so it’s not like I’d be missing any opportunity there.But when we reached the forest’s edge and the landscape opened up into a sweeping view of the mountains surrounding Boone, N.C., that earlier irritation with myself returned full-force.This sunrise was going to be brilliant.2014-10-08 07.52.53While my friends whipped out their tripods and fancy cameras and lenses and shot long exposures of the increasingly stunning sunrise, I sat on the damp rock, hugging my knees in a useless attempt to trap my body heat, and pouted. I took a few photos with the GoPro, some video to capture the wind, but that’s about all I could muster the creative energy to do.You’re useless, I kept saying to myself. Totally and utterly useless.I know. It sounds harsh, and I’ll be the first to admit I’m my own worst critic. But given that I’d been up early nearly every day that week already, staying up late working, sleeping little, and (due to the unpredictable weather in Boone) not shooting a lot, I was beyond annoyed that I woke up early that morning just to shoot the sunrise only to forget the most important piece of equipment to accomplish that.As the sun peaked over the horizon though, I had a change of heart.Not a significant change of heart, but a subtle one, mind you.For those of you that have taken the time to watch the sun rise, you’ll know that it happens fast. One moment, you can barely see the hint of glowing red peaking through the clouds. A blink of the eye later and the sun is big and full, high in the sky and beaming its golden light down below.As my friends scurried around furiously snapping away, worrying about underexposing or overexposing or which ISO to use or from what vantage point to shoot, I found myself content with simply sitting still and watching. Observing. I don’t do that a whole lot (remember the time I was sick?), and as I sat there, soaking in every second of the sun rising, I realized that I rarely do that. I rarely watch the sun rise without feeling obligated to snap a photo or shoot some video. It was a nice change of pace, a much-needed break from the norm. After the sun had made its way into the clouds above, I snapped a few photos with my iPhone and GoPro to document the morning and at least make an attempt to capture the beauty, but I hardly did it justice.DCIM101GOPROWho cares that I didn’t take an epic time lapse of the sunrise? Who cares that I didn’t get the shot? Aside from that little voice in my head, my own worst critic, the answer was nobody. What matters is that I was up early enough to see the sun rise at all, that I had breathed in a little bit of mountain air before most were even awake.So maybe it wasn’t that you forgot your camera. Maybe it was that you forgot to return a call, pay the electric bill on time, or show up to the doctor’s appointment you planned six months ago. Maybe it’s that this project you’ve poured your heart and soul into for the past semester didn’t turn out quite like you’d initially imagined it. Whatever it is that you did to disappoint yourself, forget it. Let it go, and remember that nobody’s perfect and everyone is their own worst critic. Cut yourself some slack and hop off that pedestal. If you don’t, it’s a long way to fall.last_img read more

Berger calls Shelby bill ‘solid step forward’

first_imgNAFCU President and CEO Dan Berger touted the benefits of the NAFCU-backed draft bill being marked up by the Senate Banking Committee today and called the legislation “a solid step forward to provide credit unions regulatory relief.”The committee will mark up the “Financial Regulatory Improvement Act,” a draft bill released last week by Chairman Richard Shelby, R-Ala., at 10 a.m. today. Berger wrote Shelby and Ranking Member Sherrod Brown, D-Ohio, to express NAFCU’s support for the bill in advance of the mark-up.“The impact of this growing regulatory burden on credit unions is evident in the declining number of credit unions, dropping by 23% (more than 1,800 institutions since 2007),” Berger wrote. “A main reason for the decline is the growing cost and complexity of complying with the ever-increasing onslaught of regulations. Since the second quarter of 2010, we have lost 1,200 federally insured credit unions, 96% of which were smaller institutions below $100 million in assets.”The package, includes several NAFCU-backed provisions for credit union relief and transparency at NCUA. The bill would require public NCUA budget hearings and require the agency to study the impact of its risk-based capital proposal on mortgage servicing assets. continue reading » 6SHARESShareShareSharePrintMailGooglePinterestDiggRedditStumbleuponDeliciousBufferTumblrlast_img read more

Biometrics invade banking and retail

first_imgBanks have been quietly rolling out biometrics to identify customers — verifying them by their fingerprint, voice or eye scan — and retailers like Amazon are getting into the game.Why it matters: These companies are amassing giant databases of our most personal information — including our gait, how we hold our cellphones, our typing patterns — that raise knotty questions about data security and privacy.Driving the news: Amazon wants consumers to be able to pay for items in physical stores by waving their palm in front of a payment terminal, the WSJ reports.The system would link your palm image to a payment card.Amazon “plans to pitch the terminals to coffee shops, fast-food restaurants and other merchants that do lots of repeat business with their customers,” the Journal reports. continue reading » ShareShareSharePrintMailGooglePinterestDiggRedditStumbleuponDeliciousBufferTumblrlast_img read more

Columbus city leader, substitute teacher under investigation following classroom incident

first_imgFacebookColumbus, In. — After officials from the Bartholomew Consolidated School Corporation declined comment earlier in the week a report from the Columbus Police Department says a city councilman and substitute teacher is under investigation following an altercation with a student.The report from the police department says the altercation between District 3 Republican Columbus city councilman Frank Jerome and a student over a cell phone just after noon on Friday, April 13. Jerome grabbed the students arm causing the student to fall from the chair. No injuries were reported.Unconfirmed reports indicate Jerome was sent home and will not be used as a substitute teacher any longer.Indiana State Police are conducting the investigation and have issued no statement.This is the second time in as many years for a Columbus city councilman to be in legal trouble. In 2016 District 1 Republican Dascal Bunch was charged with misdemeanor indecent exposure after the Columbus Police Department reports indicated Bunch exposed himself to them on at least three occasions. Bunch agreed to and completed a pre-trial diversion program in 2017.last_img read more

Warnock tips return of vintage Jag

first_img The 32-year-old defender played in the opening two games of England’s ill-fated World Cup campaign alongside Chelsea’s Gary Cahill but has since lost his place to Phil Jones. Jagielka has also come under fire for some below-par displays at the heart of the Toffees defence as Roberto Martinez’s side have shipped 10 goals in the early weeks of the Barclays Premier League season. That could lead to tiredness in Premier League fixtures immediately following Europa League exploits, but Warnock does not feel it is something his side will benefit from this weekend. “Roberto is taking it on board and they would love to win the competition,” Warnock said. “With Everton’s players, their feet are all on the ground and there is no-one above themselves and that makes for a great dressing room. “I would imagine every one of them would want to play on Sunday who played last night – when you’re playing well like they are, you want to play against the lesser sides if you like, you quite fancy it. “Likewise I think our lads will be looking forward to it because Goodison is a great stage.” Whether Jagielka will retain his place for the visit of Warnock’s Palace on Sunday is unclear, as is the availability of Eagles forward Marouane Chamakh. The Morocco international has been sidelined with a hamstring issue and, although Warnock will give him every chance to prove his fitness, he will not take unnecessary risks with a player he believes is invaluable to his ambitions this campaign. “Chamakh is training, he has trained the last few days,” Warnock said. “We will probably leave him until the last minute. It is only three weeks since the injury for Chamakh and he is an important player for us. “I don’t want to take a chance if it means there is a risk of losing him for six weeks so we will play it by ear with the physios and Chamakh. “He has got a chance. He has trained the last two days and hasn’t felt anything, but in a game you can do something without thinking about it.” But Warnock, who takes his Crystal Palace team to Goodison Park on Sunday afternoon, has backed the man he brought into professional football at Sheffield United 14 years ago to show he can still cut it in the Barclays Premier League. “I think he’s just got to be proud of what he’s achieved really,” Warnock said of his former Blades skipper. “I had him as a lad and they were telling me he was a right-back or a central midfield player and together we found a position for him. To see him playing at the World Cup was a fantastic achievement for him and he’s a smashing lad with a lovely family. “The answer to the critics is what he did in the Europa League against Wolfsburg. I thought he was superb and that’s the way to answer people, by turning out and playing. “I’m sure the Everton fans might be even happier if he doesn’t get picked for England because he does a wonderful job for Everton and has done for many years. I remember talking to David (Moyes) and Arsene Wenger and said, ‘If we (Sheffield United) do get relegated then he’s the one you want to sign’. “He’s just a level-headed lad. He’ll not even bother about any criticism or anything, he just turns up for training each day. “Managers have first names on the team sheet every week and he’s one of those and Roberto is lucky to have him. He’s a fabulous player and he’d get in every team in the Premier League, I think.” The 4-1 victory over Wolfsburg saw Everton win on their return to European competition as Martinez looks set to field strong teams in an attempt to challenge for Europa League glory. Press Association Neil Warnock has backed Phil Jagielka to answer his critics in the only way he knows how – with full-blooded performances for both Everton and England. last_img read more

Journalists turn to data to make sense of the world

first_imgData is allowing journalists to show their readers how the world fits together. • Media freedom is evolving • Research reveals Kenyan, Nigerian views of South Africa • Foreign journalists get the inside story • Documentaries celebrate the making of South Africa’s rainbow nation • Press freedom in South Africa Sulaiman PhilipData is not only changing journalism; but are changing the world. Poring over and analysing large data sets, finding what is interesting and telling riveting stories that show your readers how the world fits together may sound daunting, but these are skills journalists need to develop, and refine, in a brave new media world.Siyabonga Africa is counting. Sitting at a table close to his office at Jozihub, he is silently counting: women in summer dresses; men with beards; how many sugar sachets people at the tables around him are using. Numbers matter even if you choose not to pay attention to them, says the data journalism trainer and Fellow at Code4SouthAfrica.“Have you noticed how many more cyclists are out on the weekend? That got me wondering if the increased number had anything to do with the 94.7 [annual Joburg cycle race]. I asked the question on social media and got some interesting answers about panic training. Knowing this, I can plan a different route or sleep in on Sunday.” “The real challenge is getting journalists and techies into a room and getting to speak the same language,” says Siyabonga Africa.Information allows you to make informed choices when you interact with the world. Information has always mattered to journalists; but today, the way it is accessed and used has changed the way they work. Think of any of the major stories that you have read in the past year: it more than likely that they were driven by accessing reams of data across multiple sources.Data allows you to understand your world. Analysing the data well allows journalists to tell complicated and important stories in a way that readers can grasp. Data journalism gives consumers the ability to explain the world to friends, relatives and colleagues. To create data-driven stories that give readers the tools to make sense of their world and, as important, to want to engage, you need journalists, coders, data wranglers and graphic artists. They are collaborating to present information in innovative and interesting ways. They have helped to break down the walls between closely held data and how they are used in the wider world. On the African continent, the growth of data journalism is stymied by the lack of unique content, and what is available is shallow research not linked to other data sets in related fields. Africa is the kind of person every newsroom should have, what he calls an “evangelist”, a man who spreads the gospel of data and its power as a tool for journalists. Financial realities have forced media managers to try to squeeze better productivity out of fewer resources. As fewer reporters cover specific beats cultivating human sources, journalists have been forced to immerse themselves in the study of statistical data and policy papers to tease out stories.Hidebound and underfunded South African newsrooms have lost a step compared to other African news sources –some media houses are quickly catching up. Last year Media24 and the Global Editors Network (GEN) co-hosted an Editors Lab. Two teams, the Sunday Times and City Press, were chosen to represent South Africa at a global data event in Barcelona. “There is this fear of allocating staff to work that is time consuming and may not lead anywhere. It’s so much easier for media managers to keep staff doing the tried and tested, churning out content.”One of Africa’s favourite real world applications of data journalism on the continent is Kenya’s The Star’s Dodgy Doctors app. “Apparently unlicensed fly-by-night doctors are a real problem in Kenya. So they built an app listing all the registered doctors in the country. Anyone can now check to see if their doctor is actually a real doctor.”Data is not just changing newsrooms. The problem – especially in Africa – is that data is held on to tightly until they are perceived to have no economic value. But the value in data is that it can be interpreted and used by different people for different reasons.Sabermetrics – statistical analysis of performance in baseball – is used to identify and coach shortcomings in players by trainers. Managers use it to identify players to release or buy. Sport has lead the way in compiling and using data, and large sporting events like the Olympics and the football World Cup generate mountains of data.Germany are champions of the football world and the nation has drunk its fill of beer in celebration. Some would say that German superiority was down to Brazil not living up to the hype, the unbalanced Argentinians or the inability of the English to score, but German success was not down to just the machine slickness of their play festooned with sporadic flourishes of individual genius. Germany had a secret weapon: for two years the Manshaft coaching staff, with the assistance of German academics, built a performance database of thousands of possible future opponents. During the World Cup, they mined available data to build game simulations and analysis software to prepare the team.Data is as much a public asset as roads and parks and should be available to the people who paid for them, Africa believes. Taxpayer-funded data like the census figures can be used by entrepreneurs to create new businesses, more jobs or even new industries. Imagine if all the census records were freely available, machine readable and not saved in PDF format, Africa begins. “Someone could use that data in a way the government did not intend; entrepreneurs could create new jobs, new industries. That is why data [are] important and more importantly, why [they] should be freely available and easily accessible.”In the US, government-funded databases have been open and machine readable since 2013 by executive order. President Barak Obama understood a simple truth when signing the order, which reads: “Making information resources easy to find, accessible, and usable can fuel entrepreneurship, innovation, and scientific discovery that improves Americans’ lives and contributes significantly to job creation.”last_img read more

Robert Griffin III Sidelined After Injury Scare

Washington Redskins coaches decided to bench quarterback Robert Griffin III on Sunday after he bruised his knee during a hit from 335-pound Broncos defensive tackle Terrance Knighton.Doctors cleared Griffin to return in their 45-21 loss to the Denver Broncos, but coaches opted to keep him off the field.After falling to the ground in pain, Griffin’s left knee was examined by doctors.“I think it just scared me,” he said.The left knee isn’t the same knee that Griffin had surgery on in January, after he tore his ACL in last year’s playoffs.When asked about Griffin’s left knee Redskins coach Mike Shanahan said: “I think he’s fine. Doctors felt like he could have went back in.”Griffin told the media after the game: “We decided it was smart to just keep me off the field and be ready to go next week.” read more

City Councilwoman Barbara Bry announces 2020 candidacy for mayor

first_img KUSI Newsroom, City Councilwoman Barbara Bry announces 2020 candidacy for mayor Updated: 9:41 AM KUSI Newsroom 00:00 00:00 spaceplay / pause qunload | stop ffullscreenshift + ←→slower / faster ↑↓volume mmute ←→seek  . seek to previous 12… 6 seek to 10%, 20% … 60% XColor SettingsAaAaAaAaTextBackgroundOpacity SettingsTextOpaqueSemi-TransparentBackgroundSemi-TransparentOpaqueTransparentFont SettingsSize||TypeSerif MonospaceSerifSans Serif MonospaceSans SerifCasualCursiveSmallCapsResetSave SettingsSAN DIEGO (KUSI) – City Councilwoman Barbara Bry Wednesday announced her candidacy in San Diego’s 2020 mayoral race.Bry, a Democrat who represents Council District 1, is the first major candidate to formally announce a mayoral run.Mayor Kevin Faulconer, a Republican, is in the midst of his second and final term and Democrats are eyeing a chance to take the mayorship — technically a non-partisan position — in a city that is trending further to the left.“I want our city to be a model for cities around the country and all over the world,” Bry said in a campaign announcement video. “I want us to be a model in how we treat everyone with equity and respect.”Bry is a former journalist and high-tech entrepreneur who ran for City Council in 2016. Her quiet filing of candidacy paperwork last month flew mostly under the radar. She has served as the council’s president pro tem since 2017 and was one of the first elected officials in the city to endorse the SDSU West plan to redevelop SDCCU Stadium in Mission Valley.After leaving journalism, Bry founded companies such as and Athena San Diego, which helps women in STEM industries, as well as Run Women Run, which supports and encourages pro-choice women to run for elected office.“I love this city,” Bry said. “I believe a large part of my business success is because I was fortunate enough to end up in San Diego. I was a white woman with a Harvard MBA, so I had a lot of doors that were open to me that are not open to a lot of people in San Diego and I want to make sure they get the same opportunities that I had.”Bry’s potential competition in the June primary could include Assemblyman Todd Gloria, D-San Diego, Rep. Scott Peters, D-San Diego, and, among Republicans, City Councilman Mark Kersey and former San Diego Police Chief Shelley Zimmerman. Categories: Local San Diego News, Politics FacebookTwitter January 2, 2019 Posted: January 2, 2019 00:00 00:00 spaceplay / pause qunload | stop ffullscreenshift + ←→slower / faster ↑↓volume mmute ←→seek  . seek to previous 12… 6 seek to 10%, 20% … 60% XColor SettingsAaAaAaAaTextBackgroundOpacity SettingsTextOpaqueSemi-TransparentBackgroundSemi-TransparentOpaqueTransparentFont SettingsSize||TypeSerif MonospaceSerifSans Serif MonospaceSans SerifCasualCursiveSmallCapsResetSave Settingslast_img read more

Step into the Churchill

first_imgThe Churchill, Jaypee Greens Golf & Spa Resort’s Cigar lounge, was named hence as a tribute to the most popular connoisseur of cigars in history, Winston Churchill. True to its name, the lounge serves its guests a select range of the finest quality of Cuban cigars. These handpicked cigars when combined with our assorted selection of fine liquor exude understated power and unassuming elegance. The menu staples range between the high-end Cubans including Montecristo Grand Edmundo, Hoyo De Monterrey Epicure No. 2, Parthagas Serie D No. 4 and the quintessential Romeo Y Julieta Short Churchill, also the more modest Cubans on the lines of Fonseca KDT Cadettes and Jose L Piedra Nacionales are included. The menu will undergo some interesting changes in October apart from some new additions Cubans will be paired with classic drinks.last_img read more